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On Social Anxiety and Small, Paralyzing Tasks

I have social anxiety.

That admission will probably surprise the heck out of some of you, considering all of the things I'm involved with that are people-centric.

But it's true. Over the 7 years, I've gone from being able to talk to anyone, anytime to really struggling to do so.

As a result, some important tasks that land on my plate to accomplish sit and stew for ages until I get my courage up to tackle them. Some die out or lose relevance long before I can get my nerve up to face them.

Having said all that, I accomplished two such tasks today. When I tell you what they are, you'll think I'm an absolute ninny for not taking them on sooner. But I did and they're done and that's a good thing all around.

Ready to hear what I did?

First, I chatted with our new mailman about the massive quantities of mail arriving at my address that are not for me or any member of my household. I had no idea how to handle getting so much mail meant for other people and was overwhelmed with how full my box always got as a result. The nice young man promised to only deliver mail from now on with the last names of Lewis and Aller. That'll eliminate about 60% of the mail I receive. Yay!

Second, I chatted with my neighbors (while their granddaughter held Baby) about borrowing one of their wheelbarrows to move brush from my backyard out front for the garbage folks to get. They have six parked in the side yard between our houses (he's a contractor and has multiples of everything) and told me I could take any of them any time I need them. Hooray!

See? Silly little things. But it's taken me months to address them. I function fairly well daily despite my anxiety, depression, bipolar and OCD issues (and I'd swear there's some ADHD thrown in there as well, but it's never been diagnosed) but sometimes, the smallest of issues just shut me down.


For now, I'll just enjoy having accomplished these overdue items. Win!
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  1. HighlanderPhoenixNovember 29, 2018 at 2:07 AM

    Proud of you girl! I know anxiety can make things seem so huge and overwhelming sometimes!

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